Turmoil

Alright, so maybe I need to keep an eye on the whole microcosm-is-a-reflection-of-the-macrocosm thing. It was talked about in that yoga journal article I mentioned a post or two ago. When working sun salutation this morning, I was very tense. I was also very short with my son, who was actually being pretty cute. He spent some time working to mirror the poses I was working through and doing a pretty good job. When he'd get under me on the mat, though, I was brief and snappy when telling him to move. (The fact that I'd either squash him or try to put my knee/foot through him doesn't matter.)

When I was in Four-Limbed Staff Pose, he decided to hop on my back and I was very growly when I told him to get off my back and that's when I realized I stepped over the line from semi-justified to asshole. He looked very hurt and wouldn't come sit on the mat with me when I sat down and asked him to--instead going over to the couch and face-planting.

I need to make it my goal today to stay focused on the people around me and what kind of interaction they're getting out of me. There's something that needs fixing here; let's see if I can find it.